A year of catching up
It seems that I keep my blogs the way that I keep my journals - with long hiatuses and overwhelming updates. It has been a quite eventful ten months, and I find myself in a bit of a crisis. To start, I am single for the first time in 14 years. I ended my relationship of 6.5 years in February with the hopes of learning who I am outside of a relationship and to better understand what I expect and hope to gain from a partner. After 8 months, I'm honestly not sure if I am any closer to those goals. I started a new medication. The dosage was recently adjusted, and I am working my way out of a depression, so I'm not sure whether it is actually what I need. This was my first depression without a partner, which was both better and worse than other episodes. It was more difficult to see, as I didn't have someone to reflect on my actions, but it also meant that I didn't have someone that I felt I was letting down on an immediate and intimate basis. It did show me, however, th