Self-harm isn't all about cutting: A discussion of scab picking
Okay, so I have a really gross habit neurosis coping mechanism? I'm not really sure what to call it. I pick at my skin. It'll start with a hang nail or acne, and will eventually start to bleed, which will eventually become a scab, which will not heal for months because I can't leave it well enough alone. I know that it's awful and gross and potentially dangerous. I already have scars from it. My cuticles are destroyed because of it. I've gotten countless minor infections on my fingers because I pick and chew on the skin around my nails. Beloved points it out every time he sees me do it, one of my girlfriends has offered make me a behavior plan to change it, friends and lovers are always telling me to "stop picking at it!" And yet, I can't bring myself to, despite the embarrassment, frustration, and problems. I didn't always pick at my skin and scabs. I taught myself not to bite my nails in 4th grade. ...